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4.27.2010

They said no

So, about last week. 

There are advantages to working at a start up company.  Ian has really really enjoyed the technical challenge of being on the leading edge of technology.  While my mind doesn't quite comprehend what he does ~ and maybe sometimes I start to get a little "glazy eyed" as he tries to explain it to me ~ I do recognize the excitement in his eyes as he gets closer and closer to solving problems at work. 

But there are also disadvantages.  Disadvantages that look like long hours and the constant stress of knowing that every few months the company must secure further funding from the investors. 

Monday morning Ian gave me a heads up that it was "that time again" and that further funding was looking questionable. At that point the CEO was giving the odds of the investors giving "the thumbs up" at 50/50 shot at best.

Wednesday mid-day he called to say that the investors had met with the CEO about the next round of funding. 

This time they said no. 

And no further funding means that there is no more money.  No more money means no more company.  No more company means no severance package, or even no COBRA health care coverage. 

Deep breath.

You know, we've been here before in "unemployment land."  Twice before actually.  Both times God held us in the palm of His mighty hand.  Both times our needs were met.

We know that He will provide this time too. 

Don't get me wrong.  I've gone from time of perfect peace to time of precarious panic.  Sometimes I swing back and forth several times a minute.  This time feels like it is different.  After all, we now have three kids to feed.  One of our children is requiring a lot of doctor visits (her surgery bill arrived the day after Ian's job abruptly ended).  There is no cushion of health care coverage and what we've found so far on the open market that will give us 80% coverage costs more per month than unemployment pays.  Our savings account was pretty well drained in paying for three adoptions and trips to China in as many years. 

See, when I take my eyes off Him, I start to panic again.  But upon further reflection, I think my God ~  the one who created the entire universe ~ has got this situation in his pocket.  And sitting in God's pocket?  Well, that's one mighty comfortable place to be.  Our unemployment situation did not surprise Him one bit.

The hard part is staying focused and switching our trust from our bank accounts to the one who created us to be able to work.  Please join us in praying that we'll learn to keep our eyes on Him for our provision.  And please join us in praying that we'll seek the door he is holding wide open for us instead of beating our heads into the one that may appear "slightly ajar." 


We're not sure exactly what comes next, but we're looking forward to what God has in store...

31 comments:

Anonymous said...

HE has much bigger things in store for Ian! This is part of His plan. I am sorry for what you guys are going through, but it will work out. And in the meantime, let me know how I can help. We will be praying. And although this may seem strange, I am excited to see where He leads Ian and your family.....

Beth

Nancy said...

Oh no, Kristi! I am so sorry to hear about Ian's job. I will definitely be praying. Hugs, friend! You inspire me!

Jess and Tim said...

Oh Kristi-I am so sorry you are having to go through this. We have been there and it is hard to hand it all over to God! We are human and want the control-but we don't have it and He does know the plan he has for you and your family!!

Joshua 1:9
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Lilly said...

i'm so sorry kristi that you and your family are going thru tough times. and very thankful for your honesty and courage to put it all out there. it will get tougher but you must know that he will never abandon you. praying for direction and peace.

Allison said...

Yikes, I am so sorry to hear that. I am definitely praying for y'all.

Amanda said...

Kristi I am so sorry - - - - but I too am looking forward to see what God has in store for your family. I know He has great plans for you and I pray that it won't be long before you look back on this and understand exactly why it happened. Joe and I will be praying for you and your family.

Melanie said...

Thanks for sharing what's going on. Reid and I will be lifting all this up in prayer. If we can be of any help with anything, let us know. Love ya, Mel

Andrea said...

I wish I could give you a hug and happily distract you but I know you've got family and friends there to do that. I WILL be praying for this situation and for God to give you even a glimpse of the "why?" which I'm sure is heavy on your heart right now.

Our Journey said...

Kristi, I'm so sorry to hear about the "no" -- You & your family are on my list right now!!! I can imagine how hard it must be to keep your eye on God in these kind of stressful times - but your family & faith are amazing and I've seen you post about that kind of faith before! Praying for peace & answers during this time.

Gavin's Family said...

Kristi, Please know that your family IS in my prayers as you guys go through this rough time.
Psalm 94:18-19
When I said, "My foot is slipping", your love, O Lord supported me.
When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.

Tina Michelle said...

wow, that is one hard pill to swallow. I wish you all the absolute best. I hope things work out for you. *hugs*

a Tonggu Momma said...

Praying for peace as God guides you through this time...

Leslie said...

Always praying for your family, but especially right now. We love you.

Laurie said...

I keep writing and deleting, writing and deleting. Nothing is sounding like I want it to sound. So I'll just say that I will keep you in my prayers and I look forward to hearing what God has in store for Ian and all of you in the NEAR future!

Glenda said...

Such a scary thing! I just pray for God to give you the peace that passes all understanding; and show you exactly where He wants you to be. Jeremiah 33:3 is the verse that God gave me to give you.
John and I love you and your family and we are here for you all!

Rachelle said...

WOW! Yes, I will be praying.

HE Will PROVIDE!

Ann Marie said...

We will be praying and sending huge hugs!

Ann Marie

Pam said...

Praying, Kristi.

Heather said...

Not a fun place to be at all, but it will be fun to see how God provides for you all! I know HE will! Very sorry about the job loss!

Larry and Carol said...

We know that God has a wonderful new work opportunity "out there" for Ian and will pray for peace for you both as you find your new path. We love you. AC and UL

Valerie and Jeff said...

Praying for you and your family that God's provision comes quickly, deeply and boldly! You have such beautiful words and beautiful faith ... somehow I feel more encouraged from you than this possibly could be from me to you. Keep your eyes focused as you are already doing.
Blessings!
Valerie

Shannon said...

Somehow seeing this in print made it seem so much more real...praying for you both as the reality of the situation sinks in and plans begin to be processed. Praying for the Lord to guard your heart and minds during this time and keep you in HIS perfect peace!
Love you !!
Shannon

Jenn said...

Okay...the Lord has something big planned. I'm praying for you during the time it takes for you to find out what that plan exactly is! Continue to keep your eyes focused on Him!

Hugs to you!

Cindy M said...

I just KNEW I should have called you. I'm calling today. Love you, friend. And I WILL be praying. Remember that's what we have each other here on earth for...when we start to panic, we remind each other that God's already there. You've done that for me.

Anonymous said...

Prayers and lots of them! I couldn't imagine...I'm glad you have such and strong faith and trust in God...HE'll get you thru it. You also have a strong family to back you up and pick you up when you fall down.
Stephanie Y

Donna said...

Oh my goodness - praying for you. God is faithful, and He's got you covered. Even when you don't feel it.
Love you guys.

Donna said...

Me again.
This really spoke to me today - I'm printing it down and putting it on my bathroom mirror!

http://lysaterkeurst.blogspot.com/2010/04/god-is.html

Kimberly said...

Kristi,

I am sorry to hear about the loss of Ian's job... we will be praying for provision and peace from the Lord as you spend time in the "pocket." (I love that analogy... an apt description for one of our family's circumstances right now, too!)

Jennifer Barbee said...

Praying for you... Hold on tight to the verse on your sidebar. 'Hold "unswervingly" to the HOPE that you profess. For HE who promised is indeed faithful.'

Nicole said...

Praying for you all!
Phil 4:19

Sharon said...

Catching up on posts on my new mac so I now understand your email....Will be praying for you as you again begin the search. I know a little bit of what you are made of and know you and Ian will embrace this season as yet another time to glorify Him....
and, again, you are not alone!