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8.18.2009

Uncertainty

I've gone back and forth on whether or not to post about this. For one thing there is leaving Darcy in anonymity until we receive our final approval to be able to adopt her. We had permission to post pictures of her after our pre-approval as long as we didn't use her current name and didn't tell exactly where she is living.

And then there's the issue of faith. I completely and fully believe that God caused me to stumble upon Darcy's information back in March. Even though some of the unknowns in her medical condition really frighten me, I KNOW that God will give me everything I need to be the best parent I can be for her. So why would I lose faith on other issues concerning her?

You see, while we were at the beach, enjoying our "technology free" week, a very powerful typhoon was slamming into the coast of eastern China. And I was oblivious to it (perhaps blissfully as we enjoyed our vacation). But now I'm home. And I've been reading. And researching.

And when I found this image, my heart stopped for a moment. I almost screamed.


Because Darcy's city is in a green area. And then as I continued to look through the images captured by the associated press, I found pictures of people wading in waist deep water in her city. (I'd link them, but then that would be giving her location...) My heart sank.

No, I'm not fearing for her life. There have been so few deaths reported in mainland China. But I am concerned about the aftermath. Flooding like that has consequences. Food and water supplies get disrupted. Electricity gets spotty. Diseases sometimes break out because sanitation isn't the greatest when there is so much water everywhere.

And because it happened on the other side of the world, the press has stopped following it. I can't find new information to show how her city is faring now. I have emails asking for how her CWI fared the storm and is doing now out to all the contacts I know. And I'm waiting...

The uncertainty is mind-crushing. This Mama's heart aches to have her with us. Please pray for my baby girl!

16 comments:

Amy Kelly said...

I have been praying, friend. I knew there was a chance Darcy would be there... but I also knew there were other children waiting for families who needed prayer as well. I hope you get some communication that will easy your worries. I will continue to pray! Love you!

Nicole said...

We will pray for her, and for you too! It's so hard not knowing, isn't it?

Tricia said...

I will pray for you and for her and for all the other children and families effected. God bless you with comfort and peace as you wait in His presence.

Amy Woods said...

Oh, Kristi. I'm so sorry! I do understand what you are saying as Adiah was still in China when the big ice storm hit in early 08. I will be praying for her, her caretakers, and your mommy heart. Bring them home, Lord!

Tracy M. Custer said...

I've been worried as well. I have faith that God will take care of Darcy until she can be delivered into your arms!

Nancy said...

Prayin' in PA, my dear friend!

Jenn said...

Oh Kristi! I am praying!!

Tricia said...

I'm praying too. I didn't even think about Darcy being affected. I was wondering if there was any news out of Taiwan. Have you heard?

Love you!

Ann Marie said...

Praying! Know that He who has cared for her this long will bring her home to you. That said I know how hard it is to have your child half a world away and not be able to care or know how they are. Hugs and Prayers,

Ann Marie
joyfullybusy.blogspot.com

Cindy M said...

I'll be praying for your little one today, but I have peace in my heart that she will be protected. I'm sure you won't mind if I throw in an extra prayer for her to be able to come home even sooner...

Love you, dear friend.

Grandma Shultz said...

I'm praying and I know that God has Darcy in His hands and will also give you a peace. "Don't tell God how big your storm is; tell your storm how big your God is!"
God be with you,
Mama

Michelle said...

I will be praying for Darcy and for your family.

C.C. said...

Absolutely praying for Darcy's health and safety after this tragedy and also that the paperwork will go quickly through channels and get you to your baby!

Melissa said...

Praying hard for Darcy, for all affected, and for her Mama whose heart is breaking......love, Melissa

a Tonggu Momma said...

Oh, my heart aches for you right now. I said a prayer this morning. Close friends of ours lived through this when they received a referral, then - weeks later - the Sichuan earthquake hit China. I've been relieved to hear of few casualties within mainland China and hope that you will receive TA soon.

Jess and Tim said...

Kristi-I can only imagine how worried you must be! I made sure I checked right away where our Gabe was when I head about the flooding! Many prayers going up for everyone affected and that your Darcy is safe-I am sure God has his arms around her keeping her safe until you get there!